Portrait of a Sunday

I knew I liked Johnny Cash after the first time I heard his uniquely sorrowful-yet-playful voice sing the lyrics to "Sunday Morning Coming Down:"

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down.

Oh, Johnny, other than the use of illicit drugs, I couldn't agree more. Sundays seem to be the unlucky resting place for all of the frustrations, worries, and hurts that accumulate over the course of week and slide, sneaky and mean, into all hours of this 7th day. There are, of course, the practical tasks that can seem oppressive --all of those regular "life" chores, like making sure we have clean underwear and fruit in the refrigerator and that our bathroom isn't in such state that I'd refuse its use to a guest- that I usually leave for today. Then there are the special projects that I've kept a mental list of for oh, six months or so, that I keep meaning to tackle on a Sunday, like sharpen the knives, put photos in albums, and read something serious and scholarly. I know, these aren't exactly difficult things. Yet, inevitably, by 9 pm on most Sunday evenings, I am curled up on the couch, still unshowered and in stretchy pants, leafing through the newspaper weekly ads, feeling rather defeated over my bold forfeit to the day's To-Do List and vaguely apprehensive about being ready for the week ahead.
This portrait may seem a bit disturbing, but I assure you it is entirely normal behavior for me. For as long as I can remember, Sundays have meant dodging chores, feeling spitefully lazy and then remorsefully behind, and not being able to fall asleep for a torturous hour or two or more. There have been other unique characteristics through different eras, as well: as a teenager, I fought with my older sister over whose turn it was to hang up our Catholic school uniform oxford blue shirts once the dryer buzzed; in college, I occasionally drank 32 ounces of fountain diet soda to remedy a mind muddled by too much cheap wine the night before; in graduate school, I took aimless long walks around Hyde Park dreaming up great concluding lines for papers and ignoring the fact that I hadn't started them; while dating Jeff long-distance, I spent hours before sleep thinking about when, when, when we'd no longer have to do most of our talking over cell phones.
Despite this history, in my married life, sometimes Sundays emerge from this rather pitiful melancholy, out of earshot of that "lonely bell ringing" that Johnny sings about, and settle calmly, peacefully into their place at the end of a week. Today was one, and for several reasons:

A handsome young man who also happens to be an early riser made delicious pancakes.

I drank Orange Spice tea while reading a long letter sent by a far-away friend.

I suited up in mismatched outwear for a brisk walk in the freezing air. In my family, this is called "getting the stink blown off of you." In Jeff's family, it's called "getting the bads out." Either way, you're bound to smell and feel better afterward.

We watched a half-hour of Dances with Wolves while eating lunch. The movie reminds me of moving to Dallas in 1990 and having my breath knocked out of me after leaving the theater to find that it was still 100 degrees, even at night.

And of course, I communed with our kitchen. Muffins were baked:

And African Peanut Stew thrown together:

But really, what made it a stand-out Sunday was

Biscuits. Sweet Potato Biscuits, courtesy of Molly Wizenberg.

I am sure you have heard of Ms. Wizenberg, but in case you haven't, she is the woman behind the wonderful food blog, Orangette. She has a recipe index full of winners, but these biscuits are--I am telling you--su-perb. I know I've said this several times in the very, very brief history of Chef Sue Sous, but trust me on this: you need to make these biscuits.
I am not going to post the recipe, as I didn't request permission from Orangette, but you can find it here. It really isn't tricky: you do have to boil and puree a sweet potato, and work cold butter into the flour mixture, but all in all, it is satisfying work--the kind that makes you feel that gosh darn it, I did something today. And the reward is just so much tastier than a clean bathroom. Really, how important are sanitized toilets, sharp knives, and full photo albums?
When it comes down to it, biscuits, I think, are the way to beat the Sunday blues.


Curry Me January

Ah, January. The gym is packing about 50% more bodies these days, and the grocery store is swamped by people vowing to cook more and eat out less often. Budgets are being drawn up and Christmas lights finally taken down. A full week at work after several 4- or 3-day abbreviated ones seems rather strange and a just a little bit cruel.

I've been feeling like somewhat of an onlooker these past couple of weeks. You see, I'm just not a resolver. I gave up making New Year's resolutions sometime around 1999, after my friend Meg and I resolved to give up chocolate for the entire year. We were, I think, juniors in high school. Meg did it, if I recall correctly. I, on the other hand, lasted two days, until someone passed around M & Ms during English class. I know, it's embarrassing. We weren't talking Scharffen Berger here.

After my M & M meltdown, I decided maybe I just wasn't suited for making totalistic promises that would hopefully make me a better, stronger, more self-controlled person. Props to each and every one of those ladies Zumba-ing at my YMCA or to those who've resolved to spend more time with family, become involved in the community, keep in touch with friends, and so on. For me, taking a few minutes most evenings before falling asleep to think about how I'm doing in the Life Goals area seems to reap better results than a list every January.

At least, that was my mindset up until yesterday morning, when I woke to yet another day of gray skies and rain here in Nashville. It's been like this--drippy and cold, drippy and muggy, drippy and foggy--off and on for the past few weeks and whew, boy, am I tired of it. There is something about winter in this part of the country that I find more trying than winter in Chicago. There, when November rolls around, you get that electric blanket out, clean your tea pot, find your mittens, and settle in for the next five months, because honey, winter doesn't play around in that city. Here, there's rarely any snow, but you can count on weeks that sometimes begin in the 60s, end in the 20s, feature one sunny day when you don't need a sweater, the next when you spend 15 minutes scraping ice off your car, and the remaining five that may involve getting your new suede boots muddy or searching for your flip-flops. Tennessee, you sure know how to charm a girl.

All this to say that after I dragged myself to the Y yesterday morning and ellipticaled while watching said- Zumba class in all their glory, it suddenly occurred to me why New Year's resolutions are more than a good thing--they're necessary. January is quite simply a sludgy, thick-in-the-middle, get-through-it kind of month. Just like December, it's still getting dark at 4:30, and there are still no good tomatoes at the grocery, but there's also no excuse for egg nog and 12 dozen cookies. This month needs a purpose, or rather, we need a purpose, or several even, so as not to slog through the whole thing with our pants too tight and our chins down. Resolutions just might be the only thing keeping us from eating the last of the leftover broken candy canes in the kitchen junk drawer. Which would be a truly terrible thing, given that we all know candy canes aren't even worth it.

So, friends, my food-related resolution is to bite the bullet and try my hand at authentic ethnic cooking. And by authentic, I mean recipes that use the tougher-to-find ingredients rather than the slightly-more Americanized substitutes. I generally stay away from Thai and Indian cooking because I figure that whatever I can get at takeout restaurants run by Thai or Indian families is going to be much better than what I produce. But a few weeks ago, when I sent Jeff out for some Tom Yum soup and found out that it now costs $7.95 for a bowl of broth and vegetables, I decided it was time. Time to make more frequent trips to our local International food store, despite its suspicious cold-bad-fish smell, time to find out just what galangal and dried shrimp tastes like, time to settle in for the rest of my rainy, warm, icy winter and take some comfort in spicy, fragrant, steaming hot recipes.

This Curry Mee, or Coconut Curry Chicken Noodle Soup, recipe from The New York Times' January 7th issue is my first resolution achievement. I actually don't think I can call it an achievement, actually, because it's really pretty darn easy. You do have to search out kaffir lime leaves and thai curry powder, rather than the madras most groceries sell, but beyond some mincing and opening cans, this is a cinch. And man, is it good for beating the January blues. Rich with coconut milk, it's creamy but hardly guilt-inducing--the milk is thinned with chicken stock and spiked with fish sauce. And don't be intimidated by the long ingredient list--it took me about 45 minutes to make. Which is good, because, ahem, it's now rather sunny and beautiful out. January, I guess I'll stick with you after all.

Curry Mee (Coconut Curry Chicken Noodle Soup)

I am posting the recipe in its original form, but as always, there are plenty of variations. I used jarred kaffir lime leaves, as they were all I could find here in Nashville. I also doubled the amount of lemongrass, garlic, and ginger, because what can I say? I needed the extra spice. To add some vitamin-power, I also dumped a couple of cups of broccoli crowns in, and can say that they didn't detract from the (delicious) flavor.

2 tablespoons vegetable oil
1 small onion, minced
1 tablespoon minced ginger
1 tablespoon minced lemon grass or pale green cilantro roots
2 cloves garlic, minced
1 teaspoon dark red chili paste, such as sambal, more for serving
3/4 pound boneless, skinless chicken thigh or breast meat, thinly sliced and cut into bite-size pieces
3 tablespoons curry powder, preferably Malaysian, Thai or Vietnamese
1/2 teaspoon paprika
1 can (14 ounces) unsweetened coconut milk
1/2 cup half-and-half
4 cups chicken stock
1/4 teaspoon ground turmeric
2 tablespoons fish sauce
1 tablespoon sugar, more to taste
About 12 kaffir lime leaves or curry leaves, fresh or frozen (optional)
8 ounces dried thin rice noodles (bun or vermicelli), or other Asian noodles such as udon or lai fun
Salt to taste
1 cup bean sprouts
3 tablespoons chopped cilantro
2 scallions, cut into thin rings
2 shallots, thinly sliced and deep fried in vegetable oil until brown (optional)
Quartered limes for serving.

1. Heat oil in a medium pot over medium heat. Add onion, ginger and lemon grass and cook, stirring, until softened, about 10 minutes. Do not brown; reduce heat if necessary. Add garlic and chili paste and stir until fragrant. Raise heat, add chicken and stir-fry one minute. Add curry powder and paprika and stir to coat. Then add coconut milk, half-and-half, chicken stock, turmeric, fish sauce, sugar and lime or curry leaves. Bring to a boil, then reduce heat and simmer until chicken is cooked through, about 7 minutes.

2. Meanwhile, cook rice noodles in boiling water according to package directions (about 4 minutes). Rinse and drain.

3. Taste broth and adjust seasonings with salt and sugar. Divide noodles into large soup bowls. Bring broth to a boil, then ladle over noodles. Top with bean sprouts, cilantro, scallions and fried shallots, if using. Pass limes and sambal at the table.

Yield: 4 main-course servings.


Eagerly Awaiting Little Saint Nick

I come from a family of performers. My parents were both schoolteachers when they met, and in my opinion, teaching children for 9 hours a day requires at least a modicum of stage presence. Although my mother stayed in teaching for 20 years and has now been a principal for 16, my father went into the insurance business when my sister, Chava (pronounced Hah-vah), came along. For the next 20 years, his days were spent mediating human resources conflicts, but his evenings remained devoted to the theater. The three of us kids--Chava, me, and my younger brother Anthony-- got our own tastes of the stage by appearing a variety of his productions throughout our childhood. Those community and regional theater ventures, however, paled in comparison to the independent theater troop we founded at ages 6, 4, and 2. It was called The Red Red Rose Band (the origin of this name is still hotly debated), and it was the source of several original plays and musical revues, as well as much amusement for my parents and any dinner guests they entertained from approximately 1986 until 1992.
Now, since I've used the term "theater troop," you might be assuming that the three of us shared equal billing and stage time. Not so, my friends. Chava, very smart, equally precocious, and a born leader, served as Playwright and Director. I, allegedly (or undeniably, depending on who you ask) somewhat of a ham, was the Star. And Anthony, the quiet, shy baby of the family who really would have rather been playing in a corner with his Matchbox cars, was roped into being the Stage Manager, aka, Prop Boy, Errand Boy, Steal Snacks from the Pantry Boy.

And so it went, for most of our childhood--Chava and I cajoling Anthony into participating in "Hauntings from the Past"--an original play that borrowed heavily from Disney's Beauty and the Beast and, as I recall, lacked both a climax and a conclusion--, "Susannah sings Broadway I, II, and III," and a version of Rapunzel that didn't get beyond dress rehearsal due to some in-fighting between the Director and the Star. Through it all, Ant was (we think) content to create stages from cardboard moving boxes, hand out programs the night of the performance, and remain in background for all the rest.

Except at Christmas time, that is. Every year, somewhere near the middle of December, after we'd picked out a Christmas tree and after my parents had cursed their way through fitting into the stand that was inevitably too big or too small, we'd turn on the traditional Wetzel holiday record: John Denver and the Muppets: A Christmas Together. As Miss Piggy's and Kermit's and John's sweet, slightly nasally voice filled the room, the five of us would stand back, admire the tinselled tree, and get dancing.

You've probably never heard of this album before. I don't think many people have. And if you went out and bought it and listened to it now, you'd probably chuckle at me saying how special it is. It is, after all, a bunch of puppets led by a man whose songs often walked the line between reflective and hokey. Perhaps its simply nostalgia on my part, or the fact that I am actually a big fan of John Denver in general--hokey or not--, but to me, this is a near perfect Christmas album. I remember, even as a child, being moved when John sang "Merry Christmas, little Zachary" about his newborn son, and listening closely to the story of how "Silent Night" was written. There's some sort of love and humility in the songs that I never found in our other Christmas collections.

And fun, lots of fun. Which brings me back to Anthony and his star turn every December. After Chava and I, in that year's ballet recital costumes, had danced our way through most of the first side of the record, the evening's highlight would commence. "Little Saint Nick," the very last song on Side A, was a rock and roll romp compared to other, sleepier classics like "The 12 Days of Christmas." All the Muppets joined in for it, with Fozzi leading and Animal having intermittent solos. It featured a fast beat and drums, and therefore Chava and I, in our tutus and tights, thought it needed a boy dancer.

So, as my parents tried to keep a straight face on the couch, we'd drag Ant into the center of the living room and start dancing in circles around him. After a bit, as he was the smallest at that time and veritably trapped in the middle of our twirling, he'd start to dance, too. A little shyly at first, maybe, but by the last verse, the boy was working just as hard as we were. All curly hair and dimples, he certainly deserved the limelight. He was Little Saint Nick, for a few brief minutes, and then the song was over and it was time to turn the record. Although none of us ever said it, we knew one thing, all those years: it didn't feel like Christmas until Little Saint Nick had danced.

Ant's been far, all this year: to the Gulf, to the East, to plenty of places with hard to pronounce names that I don't know if I'll ever see. He knows how to fight fires and fix engines and be at sea for six months--things none of us can really appreciate. But since he arrived home, four days ago, we've welcomed him back the right way, with many of his favorites: tofu and rice, steamed crabs, sausage and peppers, a massive lasagna. Chava's boyfriend, Christian, even braved the unseasonably frigid weather to grill some incredible wings the other night.

And tonight, Christmas Eve, we'll continue the feasting, the welcoming, the celebrating. The Red Red Rose Band has been reunited, and although there probably won't be any dancing (I can't make any promises, however, since we did bring a really good bottle of Prosecco), John Denver and the Muppets will definitely be playing on the stereo. Little Saint Nick is here, and thank goodness for that. It wouldn't be Christmas without him.


The Prodigal Daughter Brings the Pâté

I’ve got the CDs ready. The bag of gifts and wrapping paper together. My suitcase has its usual mix of clean and dirty laundry. Two peanut butter sandwiches and three oranges, because gas station food tends to leave me cranky and depressed. Jeff’s packed the keyboard, the merry sheet music, and a Nintendo set from his childhood. Our ride, a 1993 Lincoln Town Car known in these parts as “The Hoopdy,” is filled up and ready to go. At 3 o’clock in the morning, which is the usual departure time for our yearly 12 hour drive home.

Oh, home. I’ve taken so many car rides home at Christmas—home when it was New Jersey, in college, and home now in North Carolina. Home, when my mom drove me there, and home, when my husband does now. It doesn’t seem to matter, really, whether I’m 18 or 26: these rides have about the same effect on me each time: I get very, very excited for them, and about five minutes after the car revs up, I fall asleep.

My mother and sister still laugh about the time during my sophomore year in college, when they picked me up after my last final exam. I’d stayed up the better part of the past 72 hours—I was, er, a little on the intense side then—and was jittery with caffeine and the pure relief of it all being done. I climbed into the backseat of our red Ford Escape as they chatted and pulled onto the road. As they tell it, my mom asked me a question approximately two seconds later and was met with a loud, un-lady-like snore. I snored all the way to Flemington, New Jersey, where I think I got out of the car, went up to my old bedroom and kept going.

To this day, going home just draws the sleepiness out of me. It must be some internal, biological cue that someone else is temporarily responsible for keeping me alive, and I can relax. It's the same reason, I suppose, that even as an adult, I sometimes forget to buckle my seatbelt when I'm the passenger and one of my parents is driving.

Unfortunately, this instinctual reaction to being home also often results in a sudden inability to rinse out my cereal bowl, pick up my dirty socks, or do my own laundry. And to make up for that--because trust me, my socks are sometimes really dirty--I bring treats with me. Every year, there are cookies in tins and tupperware in The Hoopdy's backseat. But this year, I decided something new was needed. This is going to be a special Christmas: my brother is home from a big ship for the first time in an entire year, my sister and her boyfriend, masters of ceremonies when it comes to merriment of the brew-and-games variety, will be in attendance, and my parents are expressing their excitement in their own time-honored way, by overstocking the pantry and arguing over the merits and demerits of our Christmas tree.

All of this, I decided, called for homemade pâté. Having never ventured into pâté-making before, I was a bit nervous-it seems like it ought to be difficult, doesn't it?--but guided by a very handsome Bon Appetit writer, Andrew Knowlton, I learned two important lessons: first, pâté relatively easy to make, and second, it's also quite economical, given that 20 ounces of chicken livers cost less than two dollars and that my gracious mother-in-law allowed me to siphon off 3 tablespoons from a good bottle of cognac to use in the recipe. With Mr. Knowlton's guidance, I produced 4 Mason jars-full of silky, sassy, melt-in-your-mouth pâté. It's going to taste mighty good on a cracker, with a little Cabernet to wash it all down.

If you're looking for an afternoon's worth of an adventure that will result in wonderful host/ess gifts, I encourage you to check out the BA Foodist's Mom's Chicken Liver Pate recipe, and the BA Foodist in general. Pâté, I know, is a little bit weird and not for the faint of heart. But neither is my family. I can't wait to see them, as soon as I wake up.


Baking with Terry

Jeff has been traveling for the past week or so, which means that my evenings have gone something like this: shower after work, change into black leggings and a sweatshirt that Jeff gave to his Dad ten years ago and that I plucked from Jeff’s Dad’s Goodwill pile two years ago, tune old clock radio to NPR, climb on top of the washing machine to retrieve the mixer, mutter expletives regarding the heaviness of said mixer, climb down from washing machine, and…….bake.

Now, butter, flour, and sugar may not be good substitutes for a husband, but I’ll tell you what is: coaxing them into cookies while listening to Terry Gross of NPR’s Fresh Air. Although we’ve never met, Terry and I have spent a lot of time together, the bulk of it between June 2007 and August 2008. Jeff was taking classes towards his second Master’s degree nearly every weeknight then, and turning on the radio and turning out something from the oven became my own nightly ritual. What do we have to show for it? Well, Jeff can speak expertly on International Financial Regulatory Standards, and… I can recognize Terry Gross’s voice anywhere.

There’s no particular “catch” or schtick to Fresh Air; it’s one woman interviewing people. I find it compelling, though, for two reasons: first, I think we all ought to ask each other more questions; and second, I love not being able to see the person speaking. This, I think, is the charm of radio programs, and what makes them gratifying in a way that watching television or reading the paper or surfing the internet just isn’t. There’s something oddly intimate about getting to know people through their voices alone. I think it strips them down to their real parts, whatever those may be. Terry’s practiced interview techniques don’t hurt, either; after all of our time together, I can tell by her inflection when she’s ultra-prepared and feisty for a toughie, like this guy; or when she’s just kicking back and enjoying the ride with a smooth-sailer, like Will Ferrell.

But whether the guest is a poet, a bioethicist, or a banana historian
, I always feel a tad more edified afterward. Last week, a well-known journalist was on the program, and she said something that should be obvious but somehow seemed prescient in this age of media overload: that we oughtn’t confuse information with understanding. Maybe it’s just me, but listening—without a barrage of images—commands a different, sometimes deeper thought process than looking.

Of course, lest you think I’m getting a little too self-congratulatory here, allow me to admit that I generally lose at least 5-10 minutes of the program to cursing over spills and injuries resulting from our kitchen’s modest square footage, and that I am sometimes a rather “active listener” who calls out encouraging/antagonizing comments during some of Terry’s interviews (“Whoa, she’s pulling out the big guns after only five minutes!” or “He knows what you’re trying to do, Terry, and he already said he wasn’t going to talk about his childhood!”). But when all is said and done, the best reason for listening to the radio in the evening is that you can bake while doing it. And if you are going to bake, which really, you should, since it’s December 17th and there’s no better excuse, these are the cookies to make.

I know that by this point, you’re probably a little suspicious of Chef Sue Sous’s palate. I mean, I’ve given you curry, gin cookies, and pruney meatballs. If they’ve got anything in common, it’s that they’ve probably made you make a face. I don’t blame you a bit. But listen up, people: there’s nothing funky about these cookies, and that’s what makes them brilliant, buttery keepers. You only need six ingredients--I bet you’ve already got them on hand—and you’ll get 70-100 rounds with jeweled, jammy centers.

They’re called “Aunt Sis’s Strawberry Tart Cookies,” and they were originally published in a 1993 Gourmet (and are now listed as the favorite cookie recipe for that year in Gourmet’s Favorite Cookies 1941-2008). I have no idea who Aunt Sis is or if she’s still with us, but the woman knows, or knew, her cookies. These tarts are the only recipe that I’ve made every year since I started baking Christmas cookies in a serious (ha!) way in 2001. They’ve been around the block, so to speak. And honey, they’re just as good as they ever were.

So, 8 days until Christmas, here’s my wish for you: a big old hunk of butter, a sturdy mixer, and the sound of a familiar voice during it all.

Aunt Sis’s Strawberry Tart Cookies
From Epicurious.com

3 cups all-purpose flour
1 cup sugar
1/2 teaspoon salt
3 sticks (1 1/2 cups) cold unsalted butter, cut into bits
2 large egg yolks, beaten lightly
1 cup strained strawberry jam*

In a large bowl whisk together the flour, the sugar, and the salt, add the butter, and blend the mixture until it resembles coarse meal.** Stir in the egg yolks, blend the mixture until it forms a dough, and chill the dough, wrapped in plastic wrap, for at least 2 hours or overnight.

Preheat the oven to 350°F. Let the dough soften slightly, roll level teaspoons of it into balls, and arrange the balls about 2 inches apart on lightly greased baking sheets. Using your thumb, make an indentation in the center of each ball, being careful not to crack the dough around the edges. (If the dough cracks, reroll it and try again.) Fill each indentation with about 1/4 teaspoon of the jam and bake the cookies in batches in the middle of the oven for 12 to 15 minutes, or until the edges are pale golden. Let the cookies cool on the sheets for 2 minutes, transfer them to racks, and let them cool completely. The cookies may be made 1 month in advance and kept frozen in airtight containers.

Makes 70-100, depending on whether you use teaspoons or tablespoons.

*You can use any flavor of jam you like; I use raspberry for half and strawberry for half. Also, I don't strain my jam and just glop it in. For cleaner presentation, you can strain.

**I use my food processor for this part, by putting the flour/sugar/salt mixture into the bowl of the processor and then distributing the butter bits on top. I pulse until the mixture resembles coarse sand. I’ve made the recipe both ways and haven’t noticed a difference in the results.


A Good Meatball is Hard to Find

When you have a whirlwind courtship, it can be difficult to remember all of the details of how you became a couple. One day, you're eating graham crackers alone in bed while watching back-to-back Roseanne episodes in your studio apartment, and seemingly the very next, you're wearing a ring and distant relatives are buying you bath towels off the internet. After you tell people "I just knew!" enough times--even if you really did--all of the little stories of your meeting, dating, and falling in love can sometimes fade to the background, content to let the real showstoppers take center stage. After all, most people don't really want to know about The Time you were reading the back of one of his CDs and asked him who the artist "Feat" was and he kindly responded that "Feat" meant "Featuring". They want to hear about romantic professions and diamonds and wedding dates.

But even when you have a whirlwind courtship, I think that there's a time--a split-second, a few minutes in conversation, maybe even an entire weekend--that most people can look back on and say "that was when I knew it was something special." All gagging aside, for Jeff and me, it was our first date. For me, it was when we were walking in Chicago's River North neighborhood and Jeff kept flitting around me whenever we crossed the street. Exasperated--I was wearing too-high heels in an attempt to mitigate our vast height difference--I finally asked why he kept trying to get to one side of me. He replied, completely earnestly, that he was trying to be the one closer to the street traffic.

And if I had to answer for Jeff, I'd say that he knew it was something special when, during our dinner at a pizza restaurant, between professing my love for Aristotle and Paris, I said the words, "I like to cook."

Friends, I think you'd agree with me that our generation isn't one wholly given to the kitchen. In fact, I'd go as far as to say it's pretty darn tough to find people in their mid-to-late twenties who'd ooh and aah over copper pans and saffron. That's not to say they don't exist--hello, friendly food-blogging community--but in my humble opinion, I think young professionals who double as cooking enthusiasts are in the minority. If, as children, we were cooked for, and if, as young adults, we swiped a card to load up on prepared food in college cafeterias, we're not likely to don aprons and take up braising a couple of years later.

So if, like Jeff was, you're 24 and dating at a big research university where everyone has lockers in the library because sometimes they sleep there and are so engrossed in the life of the mind that sometimes they forget to eat* and you find a girl and and think she might be it and...she really likes to cook, well, you'd probably be a little surprised. And a little giddy.

During our five months of dating and six of being engaged, there was pork saltimbocca, baked brie, and chocolate souffle. Pumpkin pancakes, chicken fajitas, and pesto-ed fettucini. Wine and roasted nuts. A lot of cookies. We had some good times. Unfortunately, however, I think all the time I spent in the kitchen may have steamed up Jeff's glasses so thoroughly that he didn't notice that my prowess with bread dough lacked a counterpart in the other realms of domesticity. He knew my friends called me "DW**", but I think he assumed it was a nickname based little on truth and more on affection, like calling a skinny guy in a Mafia movie Fat Pete.

It was probably a bit confusing and frustrating, then, when I'd make the man a dinner of lamb chops with roasted garlic potatoes and he'd still be finding garlic skins under the coffeemaker a week later. Or when I'd let 5 water glasses congregate on my bedside table and opt to just wear socks rather than address the mystery stickiness on the kitchen floor. It may have appeared impossible for me to fully screw on the lid to the peanut butter jar, but I could make a serious bread pudding.

Our own division of labor, then, evolved over our first year of marriage to look something like this: Sue-kitchen; Jeff-everything else. That's not quite the way it remains today--Jeff is an excellent breakfast-maker and I usually hang up all of my wet towels. And it's true that over the years, I've gotten better about throwing my gum in the trash can rather than on my dresser. I know, I know. But I think we both understand now, all too well, that I just don't scrub as well as I julienne. You make certain sacrifices in marriage, I suppose, to hold on to the most important things. Like a man who'll stay between you and the side of the road. Like meatballs.

I'm making these for Jeff's company's Christmas party that's being held at the home of one of his superiors. As soon as I was asked to bring an appetizer, I knew it had to be meatballs. Save your latest hummus recipe for an all-girls book club meeting. No matter what people say around this time of year ("I couldn't eat another cookie! Oh, I'm positively exhausted by all this rich food!"); a crudite platter at a Christmas party is just disappointing.

These feature a beef, pork, and prune mixture. I developed them after tasting lamb and prune meatballs a couple of years ago and deciding to try them out with less complex meats for the sake of not having to go to the store for lamb. With parsley, parmesan, and a bit of orange peel, they've got a great meatiness, slight saltiness, and subtle, festive sweetness. Meatballs' less divisive take on fruitcake, if you will. They're not eye-catching, but they go fast, especially at parties with men in suits you've never met and don't want to try to speak to while navigating an oozing hor d'oeuvre.

As an added bonus, they can really counter the effect of any libations you might indulge in. A very good thing, if, like a certain girl of short stature and low tolerance, you had too much Pinot Grigio at last year's Christmas party and wound up making eyes at the band in the hopes they'd invite you on stage to sing. Yep, more meatballs can definitely help with that.

I plan to plop them on a platter, put some sparkly earrings on, and accompany a very handsome man who happens to know a good meatball when he sees one.

*I've thought a lot about this, and I'm sorry to say I just can't comprehend it.

**Dirty Wetzel.

Christmas Meatballs

1/2 cup fresh breadcrumbs (from French baguette)
12 prunes (I used Sunsweet brand)
4 large eggs, beaten slightly
3 large garlic cloves, minced
2/3 cup finely grated parmagiano reggiano
1 tbsp grated orange peel
1/4 cup packed, chopped fresh parsley
1 tbsp dried oregano
3 tsp salt
1 tsp ground pepper
1.5 lb ground beef (I used lean (90/10))
1 lb ground pork (I used lean)
1-3 tbsp of olive oil (if needed to help meatballs stick together)

Additional olive oil for frying

Place prunes in the bowl of a food processor and pulse until they've broken down and clump together in a pureed mash.

Stir together prune mash, beaten eggs, garlic, cheese, parsley, oregano, salt, and pepper in a large bowl. I used a whisk. It may be difficult at first to get the prune mash to break apart; just keep at it, breaking it apart with the wire of the whisk and incorporating it into the rest of the mixture.

When all of the above ingredients are mixed together, add the ground beef and pork. I used my hands for this part, but I suppose you could use a sturdy spoon. Mix thoroughly, until the egg/prune mixture is evenly distributed throughout the meat.

Form mixture into 1 1/2 inch diameter meatballs. I made about 50.

Pour olive oil into heavy large skillet to cover the bottom, heat over medium high heat. Work in batches to cook the meatballs.

For this next step: you can opt to 1) fry the meatballs until they are thoroughly cooked, about 15 mins per batch, or 2) sear the meatballs in the oil about 5-7 minutes, remove with a slotted spoon, and place on cookie sheets to bake in the oven at 350 degrees for another 10-12 minutes. I use the latter method, which helps to remove some of the grease (but thankfully, not all of it!) from the meatballs.

Transfer to plate. Serve immediately, or let cool and then refrigerate for 2-3 days. I froze mine and will reheat them in a 300 degree oven before packing them up for the party.


Giving Thanks and Doing Penance

New York, you weren't kidding around. You were windy and cold. Your crowds were ruthless and your skating rinks jammed. Your family-owned corner bakery staff had some bite and a lot of heart. Your ladies' haircuts featured bangs and looked dirty but so very cool.

New York, you are feisty and full. And you make for one heck of a great weekend.

Call it lingering Catholic guilt or Western female neuroticism, but after a weekend of this:


And this:

All I want to eat right now is this:

Thanks, friends, for making me laugh so hard I couldn't walk and for putting on a variety show for none-too-amused subway passengers. Also, for not judging me for ordering baby goat tacos at this awesome restaurant (yes, I highly recommend them). I might not see you again until Brooklyn is a bit warmer, but I'm stocked up. At least for a while.


All Grown Up, with Gin

According to my calendar, there are 20 days until Christmas. Some might say this is the time to get to your nearest mall and start shopping. I, on the other hand, think it’s a good time to get to New York City and start baking, if not in that order.

On Saturday, I’ll be taking a nonstop to the east coast, where two very lively brunettes will collect me and then drive me all the way up to Brooklyn, baby, where a very lively redhead will join us. We’ll then rush the man of the hour, Kevin, who is serving as our gracious host for a short weekend of ice-skating, Christmas-lights-gazing, and (oh, I hope) real-pizza eating.

I met Kev when we were 18 and newly-arrived freshmen at our undergraduate alma mater. There are a few important things you should know about him:

1. He brings a lot of life and a whole lot of dancing to a party.
2. He is one of those rare people who make a great companion for just about any activity.
3. He really listens.
4. He has children’s-clothing-magazine-adorable nieces and nephews.
5. He managed banks for a time.
6. He is kind.

Although most would assume that my husband, Jeff, is the tall, redheaded guy in my life, the truth is that Kev held that position long before him. He was there for our group’s favorite freshman year past time of making Napster playlists and Jello shots, and for somewhere around 252 turkey sandwich lunches in the student center. He was there when we had bean bag chairs in our common room and when we had big, way-too-many-girls-sharing-an-apartment fights in our common room. He gallivanted around Europe with me during our junior year abroad, was the sole audience member to at least four of my 3 am discourses on life, love, and the pursuit of happiness delivered on a musty couch in the corner of the 2nd floor of our international house, and shared a 21st birthday bash with me in the open-air, cobble-stoned Oude Markt in Leuven, Belgium, where it stays light until 10 pm in early summer. He listened—without any eye-rolling-- to several proclamations of “But I think I love him!” in regard to at least two different The Ones, and came all the way to Kentucky when I married The Real One.

In short, he’s a lot of fun, a great friend, and a very good person. Due to distance and daily life, we’ve had our share of long stretches without seeing and/or speaking to each other. A couple of months ago, when we saw each other for the first time in 2 (!) years, I developed a new appreciation for the fact that Kev is one for picking up where we left off, no matter what. And for all of that, I’m bringing the man some cookies.
Gin cookies.

I came across these bad boys while perusing Gourmet's chronicle of Best Cookies Recipes, 1941-2008. Several were intriguing, but the ingredient list for “Maida Heatter’s Chocolate Cookies with Gin-Soaked Raisins” sealed the deal on the spot. It is, of course, Ms. Heather’s prerogative to name her cookies whatever she pleases, but people, chocolate is not the rightful headliner here. I’d christen them Late Night Nutty Gotchas. This is the kind of cookie you enjoy in wintry weather in a big city after a night of martinis, dancing, and sparse outerwear. Devoid of any respectable amount of flour, and rather pert in their refusal of butter or oil, these are rebel cookies. They're light, with crackly tops and chewy centers, and taste not quite like chocolate, not quite like nuts, and not quite like gin. They're not really sure who they are. Which makes them the perfect accompaniment to a brief weekend with people who knew you when tube tops were not a total anomaly in your wardrobe.

This represents Gourmet’s favorite cookie recipe from 2000, and that seemed quite fitting to me. I was a senior in high school then, and I remember that year being rung in by people in a serious tizzy over Y2K and the possibility that computers might take over the world and we’d all have to go underground and live off of Spam. No wonder that by the end of that year everybody was ready to add a slip of liquor to most things, cookies included. Apparently, this recipe is so potent that Gourmet had to issue a byline that read, “Indeed, these cookies are for grown-ups only.”

I actually snickered at this and thought, I’ll show them! before I recalled that, well, I’m a grown-up. And so are my friends. Our college days are eeking their way into the Long Time Ago category. By the end of this decade, we’ll have several Master’s degrees, a doctorate, an attorney, 401Ks, an original play, and weddings between us. I hope that we never get too old for bringing 1.5liter bottles of Gallo wine to BYOB Thai restaurants, but homeownership and offspring can’t be that far down the line.

Yikes. Pass the gin. And the cookies.

Maida Hetters' Chocolate Cookies with Gin-Soaked Raisins

Slightly adapted from Gourmet Magazine's recipe

Consider yourself warned: these cookies received some seriously mixed reviews on Epicurious. Reading them, I was a little surprised and a little heartened by how many people get really worked up over cookies. Just know that these are not meant to accompany a glass of milk for an afternoon snack. They're weird, end of story. Upon sampling one, Jeff remarked, "They taste like popcorn." Consider that another warning: don't overtoast your pecans.

I adapted the recipe slightly with the advice of one of the Epicurious readers, A Cook from Downtown NYC, who, in March of 2002, suggested adding Grand Marnier and orange zest to the recipe. Thanks, Cook from Downtown NYC. I might just see you this Saturday.

Although I tend to groan whenever I see sifting in a recipe, I decided Kev was worth it. Good thing, because I think that my favorite thing about these cookies is their texture. They’ve got a meringue-meets-brownie thing going on. That kind of craziness has got to bode well for this weekend.

1/2 cup golden raisins
1/3 cup gin
3 cups sifted confectioners sugar (sift before measuring)
2/3 cup sifted unsweetened cocoa powder, preferably Dutch-process (sift before measuring)
1 teaspoon instant espresso powder
2 tablespoons all-purpose flour (unsifted)
1/8 teaspoon salt
3 large egg whites
1/2 teaspoon vanilla
1 tablespoon Grand Marnier
1 teaspoon finely grated orange peel
8 oz pecans (2 1/4 cups), toasted, cooled, and coarsely chopped

Combine raisins and gin in a cup and let stand at least 8 hours to macerate. I gave them 16.

Preheat oven to 350ºF. Line 2 cookie sheets with parchment paper and butter the parchment paper.

Mix confectioners sugar, cocoa, espresso powder, flour, and salt with an electric mixer at low speed. Add egg whites, vanilla, Grand Marnier and orange peel (if desired) and continue mixing until smooth.

Drain raisins in a sieve, without pressing, then add raisins to dough with pecans. Stir until thoroughly mixed. Dough will be very thick and sticky.

The original recipe, which will make 12 very large cookies, instructs you to drop 1/4 cup dough for each cookie onto a baking sheet, spacing cookies at least 3 inches apart, and gently pat down each mound to about 1/2 inch thick. I decided I’d prefer more and smaller cookies, so I used a heaping tablespoon and fit 16 on each cookie sheet.

Bake cookies, 1 sheet at a time, in middle of oven, rotating sheet halfway through baking, 15 to 17 minutes total for 12 big ones, or 9-12 minutes for 32 small ones. They are done when cookies appear cracked and the centers are just set. Cool cookies on sheet 1 minute, then transfer carefully to a rack to cool completely.
Makes 12-32 cookies, depending on how big you make your globs. Don’t think I can’t hear you snickering.
Gourmet’s notes: You can soak raisins in gin up to 1 week; cookies keep in an airtight container at room temperature 5 days.


On Not Loving/ Loving: Thanksgiving Meats and My Kentucky Family, Respectively

When my husband, Jeff, took me to his hometown in Kentucky for the first time, I was a bit disappointed. I wasn't quite certain what to expect, but I think I had vaguely imagined a good deal of undeveloped farmland, roadside general stores selling hams and fireworks, and some great twanged accents. You'll have to forgive me, here; I'd been living on my own in Chicago for fourteen months at that point, doing oh-so-sophisticated things like paying my bills, riding public transportation, and spraying my apartment for cockroaches, and I'd begun to think myself the epitome of a city mouse. All I'd ever associated with Kentucky was horse-racing and chicken. Oh, sure, I'd lived in Texas for some time, but that didn't really count as The South, did it? This would be entirely new territory-- a real getaway weekend to the real country. I was thinking biscuits and bourbon.

So it was with a little surprise that we took mostly highways to a good-sized suburban area in the South-Central region of the state, which looked a lot like the good-sized suburban areas I'd grown up in across the country. A lovely downtown area, the main drag of strip-malls with red and yellow fast food outposts, some treed residential developments. I saw one picket fence, two horses, and nary a general store.

And as for the food, well, I don't know what I'd pictured beyond biscuits, but Jeff's mother served a wonderful vegetarian lasagna. We drank a red wine. The city mouse slept quite soundly in a pale pink bedroom and awoke the next morning feeling rather at home.

Of course, I returned to my very drafty apartment in Chicago on Monday feeling pretty silly about whatever it was I had expected the previous Friday. A few months, later, however, what I'd been murkily envisioning materialized, and it happened through a pretty spectacular holiday called Thanksgiving.

Before that year, Thanksgiving had never been a favorite of mine. It wasn't really its fault; as the kick-off event to about six weeks of very immoderate amounts of cookies, toffees, truffles, cheese balls, egg nog, hot cocoa with whipped cream, and champagne, poor Thanksgiving, with its creamy--often homely--casseroles and cranberry sauce plopped out of a can, was relegated to an exercise in pacing myself. When it comes to personal tastes, poultry, potatoes, and stuffing are not typically the stuff my dreams are made of. I'd go for a stir-fry or a curry any day over a gravy-laden plate. Growing up, we certainly observed Turkey Day, but in a fairly quiet way. My extended family is scattered throughout the country, so my parents, siblings, and an uncle or aunt here and there comprised our day of Macy's Parade watching and general slothfulness.

Needless to say, then, I was thinking more about the significance of meeting Jeff's extended family for the first time than about any holiday trappings when we returned to Kentucky to spend Thanksgiving. What would they be like? Would I be too quiet or too loud compared to them? Would I remind them how much they really liked Jeff's previous girlfriend? ("oh, Susannah is nice, but remember how Fifi* always did all of the Thanksgiving dishes and captained our touch-football games and beat us all in Scrabble?")

When we arrived, my heart beat a little faster. Oh, there were a lot of them. They were strewn on the living room floor and couches watching football, they were piled two to a chair around the kitchen table. I'd leave one room that seemed so full it just had to contain all of them, only to find that half were actually in the next.

But after an hour or so, I knew this: this family did it up for Thanksgiving. For them, this was no light jog around the block to warm up for the holiday marathon. This was a crowd 'em all in, cackle over memories dating back to the 70s, bring out Taboo, and chat for hours event. They even had a traditional drink--chilled and bubbly Asti. Before I knew it, I was holding a glass and sitting in the midst of them, hearing Jeff get teased for only eating a certain brand of plain spaghetti for several years of his life.

And the food? Well, it was a bonified feast, straight from the cover of Southern Living. There was a turkey and a ham, but my word, they were the understudies to the side dishes, which filled the entire surface area of a fairly expansive kitchen island and breakfast nook. Cornbread dressing. Sausage-Sage dressing. Oyster dressing. Chicken and thick noodles. Sweet potato casserole with a candied pecan-brown sugar topping. Roasted asparagus. A creamy, cheesy green bean casserole. Cranberry salad. Corn. Waldorf salad. Mashed potatoes. Warm rolls, wrapped up in a basket.

No, there was nothing particularly "Southern" about the meal, and there must be families in Manhattan who ate more biscuits than we did, but at some point during the afternoon, maybe after I was the subject of some light teasing, it occurred to me that this was more what I'd been looking for on my first trip to Kentucky months before. A big, big family; comfort food; a handful of accents. Because when it comes down to it, the "getting to know you" period is thrilling when you're getting to know your future husband, but when it comes to families, I think it's better to skip over all of that politeness and nervousness and just be taken in, without question, as one of them.

After that dinner, I think I took a nap. It was a somewhat heady day, after all, between the introductions, the Asti, and consuming enough carbohydrates for all of 2005. It didn't really change the way I feel about Thanksgiving meats--I'm still fairly ambivalent when it comes to turkey and ham--but it changed my Thanksgivings forever. Now we spend each one in Kentucky, which, if you must know, is known for horse-racing, something called a Hot Brown, and my second family.

*No, Jeff never actually had a girlfriend named Fifi.

Turkey and Squash Curry

For me, curry is a natural chaser to a weekend of overindulgence. The perky spices and ginger are refreshing after serious gravy intake, and the vegetables do a lot of good for the pie-guilty psyche.

I'm afraid this recipe might be too late for using up your bird, but no matter--it is equally good with leftover chicken. When it comes to modifications, feel free to substitute acorn squash or even sweet potato for the butternut. I threw in a small bag of broccoli crowns rather than spinach.

A note on spices--I have given measures that result in a mildly-spiced dish. If you're like me and your palate prefers more to less when it comes to spice, increase each spice by about half or even double.

1 lb butternut squash, peeled and chopped into 1-inch cubes
4 tbsp olive oil, divided
1 onion, coursely chopped
3 garlic cloves, minced
1-inch piece fresh ginger, peeled and minced
2-4 cups cooked turkey or chicken
3 tbsp curry powder
2 tbsp dried marjoram
1 1/2 cups chicken broth
1 28 oz can diced tomatoes, drained

1 10-ounce bag of baby spinach (optional)

3/4 cup plain yogurt (full fat or nonfat, your choice)

3 tbsp flour

Preheat oven to 375. Line a cookie sheet with foil.

Toss cubed squash with 2 tbsp olive oil. Spread in a single layer on lined cookie sheet. Bake in oven for 25-30 mins, or until tender.

While squash is baking, put a large, 12-inch skillet, preferably nonstick, over medium high heat. Add 2 tbsp olive oil. Add onions and cook until translucent, about 8 minutes. Stir in garlic and ginger. Cook another 3-5 minutes.

Stir in chicken or turkey and drained tomatoes, then stir in curry powder and marjoram. Add chicken broth, and bring mixture to a boil. Reduce heat to a simmer. Add spinach if so desired, and stir until wilted. Stir in cooked squash. Let entire mixture simmer for another 10 minutes.

Stir flour into yogurt in a small bowl with a whisk.

Remove curry from heat, and stir in yogurt mixture. Serve over rice or couscous.

Serves 4-6.

P.S. If you're in need of someone to finish off your bird, this guy is available:


She May Not Be a Beauty

But she's a cheesecake. An amalgamation of some of the richest, most decadent ingredients we've got. Melted butter. Creamed cheese. Heavy cream (a term that's a bit redundant, no?). She's what we're contributing to Thanksgiving this year.

With concentric cracks and some unsightly dark spots, she's no pastry queen. But even if I had the time to smart her up with some (more!) piped cream or (more!) chocolate glaze, I wouldn't do it. Holidays, especially ones during which large families congregate, are decidedly--and deliciously--messy affairs. Blood relatives and people who were once complete strangers mash together for much needed catching up, much too much eating, and much too soon goodbyes. A slightly lopsided cheesecake will fit right in.
As one of the "Non-Bloods" who'll be in attendance this year, I'm just thankful for springform pans, KitchenAid mixers, a husband who does the dishes while I bake, second families, room for all of us, and
one creamy chocolate caramel cheesecake.
Happy Thanksgiving from Nashville.